he told me that his love was as
sweet as candy hearts
but
i knew that his love was
much
sweeter
than
that.

it's winter.

tomato soup
is
calling
me.

they agreed that they would
love
one
another
forever.

even the coldest winter's day
can feel
like
happiness.

hope you're having a great winter's day.

fortune cookie thursday

i try to chase the stars
but
they
always
run
faster.

i took her frail hand in mine
and she said
"so you see dawn, this is my dying time"
and
even though i searched desperately for a band aid
to try and
fix
it
there were none
to
be
found.

i need
a
very large
glove
to
catch
myself
thinking.

sometimes he forgets
that he can
choose to
walk
in
the
sunshine
when the clouds of uncertainty
alter
his
perspective

it might be time for glasses when:

1. you end up calling tokyo when you're ordering a pizza
2. you check the number and then call tokyo again
3. you answer the phone in your best sexy voice complete with invitation for naughtiness and then realize the name you read was not your husband's but the pharmacy calling to tell you that your prescription is ready
4. you realize you're wearing purple socks with brown pants when you get into the office because "the light is better there"
5. you successfully rationalize to yourself that you're not really getting older and need glasses but that you just want to make a fashion statement
6. people tell you that they're getting tired of you asking "is this a 9 or a 7?"
7. you set the restaurant on fire when you hold your tea light up close to the menu in an effort to get enough liight to read it

it's
what happens
between the stuff we thought
would happen
but
hasn't

and
the stuff that we still
anticipate might
happen

the stuff
we
make
happen

and the stuff
we don't
want
to
happen
but deal
with
anyway.

fortune cookie thursday

my shell
fell
off
a couple of years
ago

but

i still carry it
with
me
in
a
small
suitcase
just in case
i
might need
it
in the
future.

hope your new year
is
filled
with happiness
all things light filled
and
a
whole
lot
of
magic.

i received my invitation to reality in the mail
yesterday
but
i had to decline
due to
other
obligations.

december

wishing you the happiest.
may it be filled with laughter and joy.
may every day be equally so.

i want the beautiful angles of
winter
skies
without the cold.

i want to have
insight and
growth.
without pain.

i want to
understand others.
without first judging them out of
fear.

i want there
to be peace among
all people.
without bloodshed.

i want to look
in the mirror
and just see me.
without my past and all the sadness and loss that
came
with
it.

i want these things.

when i was young,
i thought in terms
of
black
and
white.

and then
life happened
to me.
with its
romantic love,
and career
and being
a mom
and
i
realized that
i had to add
the importance
of grays
as well.

and now these
days,
i only
want
to
think
in
color.

things i need to make lists about

1. reasons why i felt compelled to eat an entire bag of brussels sprouts for dinner last night.

2. reasons why i always manage to spill an entire cup of coffee down my shirt only when i am wearing white

3. reasons why i would even think i could wear white shirts and drink coffee at the same time (see #2)

4. places where i put things that i want to keep "safe"

5. reasons why i feel i need to make lists all the time

i'm pretty sure that
my christmas button is broken.
i keep
pushing it
and
pushing it.

and nothing happens.

no warm fuzzies
or holiday cheer.
my heart isn't bursting with
altruistic tidings
of
all things christmas to humankind.

i think the connecting wires
were
severed and pulled apart.

does anyone know a good repairman?

because i'm definitely in need.